Dream Of Para-Para-Paradise

No matter how much I like to focus on what I've got, I can't help but to let my mind wander. I often think of how it would be to find that one place where you could just relax, and know that this is where you belong. Sometimes that feeling of belonging comes along, and I feel great, but I kinda miss that feeling of just knowing that this is where I belong. I guess what it comes down to is that I miss my friends, and the safety the give. How retarded we used to act together, and just not giving a shit about who sees or knows. That being said, I don't wanna leave Portland anymore, this place is more than a home for me now, it's found its way to my heart. This place is ful of people who love to chill and take it easy, as well as have fun and enjoy your days. I've grown accustomed to new habits, learned to live without some things, and replace them with others.

I've seen so much, experienced more than ever, and everything in less than 7 months. I've been here for 181 days, and I've only got 108 days left. It's so scary how fast time goes. And I'm so sorry to say this (even though it's not my fault) but I've started to forget so much about my old life. Friends voices, the color of neighbor houses, the silence of the woods outside my house. More importantly, I've forgotten how it is to be with people who understand exactly who you are, where you come from, and what you value. The love for my closest friends has done nothing but grow stronger though, I can't wait to enjoy all those small things again. All those times spent with people (not mentioning names because I don't want anyone to think I've forgotten them) just chilling out, gaming, eating chocolate pudding, acting foolish laughing at stuff no one else would laugh of. Enjoying life for what it is. I still do those things, but I miss doing them without having to feel abnormal, I miss Arendal. My home, my roots, my heart.

I have often dreamed, of a far away where a hero's welcome is waiting for me.


Donnie Darko is one of the best movies I've ever seen, and I never get sick of it. If you like movies that makes you think, and that are pretty original, I suggest this one. It's an experience to watch.

Waiting Here For You Everlong

After some slaps in the face, things just keep getting better for me. Things aren't changing that much, just my attitude towards them, and some luck I guess haha. Last Wednesday I was at a concert with The Fray, it was so amazing. He came out to the crowd and was within an arms length of me! He also rose from the piano without the mic to try to sing without it. He tried to shut everybody up, and it worked in the beginning, and I stod close enough so I heard him pretty well. But then he gave up because of some assholes xD It was all in all great though, and they even played Ungodly Hour.

I'm at the moment sleeping over at Dylans place. I've lived here since Sunday and I'm gonna live here a little while more. I like it a lot, they have good food. There are two dogs here, and they're very cute, but one of them, Alfredo, he's a big fluff ball that always smiles. He jumps up to hug you, and kiss you, and if I don't let him kiss me he gets so mad xD He's such a bitch.  I've been learning Dutch, French and Spanish so much lately, and I love it. Languages is really something I enjoy.Anyways, I promised pictures, so I'll get some pictures up here finally.


Dylan dressed up as Light for me 8D Haha, he's such a beast.


Saw someone else with my tattoo! :D So awesome



Walking around in a book store, and the most random Norwegian book comes up xDD What the fuck. It says "Yes! Time for wedding."


Took a lot of pics in California, but there's no way I'm uploading all that c:


Was so awesome being in Hollywood! This guy is my favorite comedian from my childhood :3


From the basketball game, we owned them so much :D And we got a free chalupa or something because they got over 100 points.


This is just hilarious xD

Discovering The Waterfront

I'm just home from one of the best concerts I've ever been to. It's actually the 2nd best to be more accurate. It was freaking amazing, I can't believe it myself yet. I got to stand on stage (and touch xD ) Silverstein and August Burns Red. As I crowd surfed, some weirdo grabbed my legs instead of my body and I fell face down, as I get up people of course go crazy and starts to hit around them (which was where I was unfortunately.) So I started bleeding pretty bad, people circled around me and asked if I was okei xD I just said yeah and kept going. Silverstein played every song I wanted them to, except for My Heroine, but that was understandable. They played old songs like Discovering The Waterfront, Bleeds No More and Your Sword Vs My Dagger.

I'm really starting to enjoy this place, more than I ever thought I would. I feel so at home here, I can't explain it. It just feels amazing, like I was born to find this place. Every day I get more and more comfortable, and feel more and more at home. To be honest, I don't really wanna leave this place anymore :) But, after everything's said and done, I could never find any place like Arendal. And I'll never find friends like the friends I've got at home. I'm looking forward to seeing home again, but I wouldn't mind spending some extra time here in Portland, Oregon. Anyways, I'm so tired, and I need to rest. So goodnight!

Kjærlighet Er Mer Enn Alt

After almost a month I decided it was time to write a new entry again! January has gone by so fast, and for every day that passes I want to stay in Portland more xD It makes me think, in June when I'm leaving, I'm gonna have a really hard time. Now, that I want to stay here does not mean I've forgotten about my old life, and believe me I miss every little part of Arendal. But I'll get it back soon enough, and I'll appreciate it a lot more. That's the main thing I've learned these days, to not take anything for granted. The people who are there for me are what makes me who I am, so thank you. I just came home from a Portland Trail Blazers game, and it was awesome haha, we won by almost 50 points. The Blazers turned out to be a pretty awesome team, and they have a 13/9 win/lose ratio in the NBA, but they turned out to be a lot better than you'd think from that. In my opinion that is.

These are stressful times though, tomorrow I have my last final exam, which is in Spanish 5 honors. I'm pretty excited about not having physics next semester, that's gonna mean so much more time to focus on French and other stuff I need to focus on! Oh, and another thing I did was go to California. I experienced more than my heart and soul could handle, haha. To have been places like Disneyland, Universal Studios etc, it's just amazing. I got to see so many props from movies, big sets I've only seen on TV or in a movie. To be in the footsteps of stars like Will Smith, Robert Downey Jr, and all the big ones. It's crazy, especially for a guy from a small town like Arendal (40-50,000 inhabitants.)

As you can imagine, I've got a lot of pictures to show. And eventually I'll put a lot of them on here, but for now I'm too lazy. Or actually I'm too not lazy, 'cause I'm gonna get busy with more studying. Furthermore, I get to see August Burns Red, The Fray, Silverstein, The Pretty Reckless, and more these coming months. Holy shit I love America xD If it wasn't for the government and the redneck/white trash I'd move here without a doubt. Portland is the heart of America it seems, the people aren't like people anywhere. Everyone's nice. If you want a new friend, all you have to do is find someone you think looks interesting and start talking. I've experienced it more than once, to put it like that. They're always there with a helping hand, and putting yourself 2nd is something that's just normal here. You of course have exceptions, the assholes, but they're to be found in every place on earth anyways. Portland is amazing, I wouldn't wanna have come to any other place in the states, not even California or Florida. "Keep Portland weird," as they say (and I think I've contributed pretty good to that).

Stay true to yourself, 'cause when it's all said and done you don't need anyone else :)

Kristine

So this entry is completely dedicated to Kristine, my sister. We're not really siblings, but we're related somehow. We've known each other since birth, and hung out forever. We were little brats together, hanging around just raising hell and having a blast! We never gave a shit about anything but exactly what we wanted to, and that's how we liked it. We discovered new things always together, always as exciting as ever. We've spent countless nights together as children, and I remember some of them still. Things change as they always do. Well, basically school happened, and the responsibility of the world began. The further we got the more we fell apart to new friends and new feelings. Some years went by with almost nothing more than memories between us. Somehow things changed again and her new friends were now my friends as well, and we started to hang out again. Still not as much as we should, but now and then. Now, the last one to two years that growing up has somewhat come to an end... We just both said fuck it, and went on with hanging out and just screwing the world together. We've been through hell and back, and we're still going strong, that's what family's about.  We've shared everything together, laughter, tears, hangovers haha, and so much more. The point is that we have a bond that runs blood deep, we always find each other again eventually, and though not always as much as hoped for, it's more than something. Jeg elsker deg Kristine! selv om du av og til er et litt tarda problembarn :) Har du alltid vært.

This One I'll Do On My Own

So it's 2012, and I couldn't care less. I'm gonna keep trying to make every day count, like I have the last month or so. I've been so interested in learning languages for a couple of weeks now, and it's really paying off. My Spanish orally has improved a lot, and my French pronunciation is improving as well. I was thinking of studying in France, Spain or the Netherlands, so I talked to my mom. She told me that Spain is not somewhere I wanna study, so no Spain. And now after getting to know French a bit, it doesn't seem as I'll manage to get fluent in that in two years. So the Netherlands it is, if I still want that in two years that is. I'd like to study in Amsterdam, I really liked the tour the Dutch teachers gave us xD The red light district ftw... And Dutch is easy to learn, it's fairly equal to Norwegian with a couple of pronouncing differences and of course word differences. But it's not hard to learn at all. It'll take time to get to speak it, but 2 years is more than enough for that. If it weren't for the Spanish and French, I believe I could get fluent in half a year to a year without problems.

Furthermore, as I say almost every time I update, I miss my friends. With everything being different but not new anymore, I miss them even more. Anyways, as this is the new year I'm gonna involve some of my favorite lyrics and quotes.


"Any idiot can face crisis. It's day to day living that wears you out." -Anton Chekov


"Can I just say one more thing?
I'm not gonna say you know there's plenty more fish in the sea.
I'm not gonna say if you love her let her go.
And I'm not gonna bombard you with cliche's.
But I will say is this:
It's not the end of the world" -Ed   From the movie "Shaun of the Dead!

"Life happens, wherever you are, whether you make it or not." -Uncle Iroh  From the series "Avatar: the Last Airbender."

"I rely on myself, just making sure that was clear.
I'm not in need of your crutches, I face all my fears.
And I want what I knew I could have.
Life is all about to make the best of what you have" From the song A Day to Remember - This is the House That Doubt Built

"Life is never easy for those who dream." -Robert James Waller

"These days are strange it's true.
There's not a thing that I would change,
no mistakes that I'd undo"   From the song Sum 41 - Screaming Bloody Murder

"Music is my religion." -Jimi Hendrix

"Without it all, I'm choking on nothing.
it's clear in my head, that I'm screaming for something.
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all."    From the song The Used - On My Own


"If the world wants to turn its back to you, then you turn your back to the world!"
"Om verden vil snu ryggen til deg, så snur du ryggen til verden!" -Timon    From the movie "the Lion King"


The last quote is one that means a lot to me for some reason. It's not something I say to myself every day, or something I've got written on the wall. I just really like it, and I always have.
"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you'll land among the stars." I'm not sure where it's from, nor if I wrote it as it's supposed to be.

I'm gonna end this with something funny I noticed today, which is that bread is used for a lot of weird fucking things xD I'm only gonna include 3 pics, but there are so so so much more weird shit out there o-o




                                    It's used as armor. Lol, I love bread man, he's awesome xD

The Japanese use it as art, which is kinda.. weird xD Japan has weirder though, I know.

Used as a weapon. I really like this picture, but it's still quite funny.

I'll Never Be Good Enough

It seems as if the voice in my head I usually call "judgement" at the moment is cloudy, and hard to hear. To put it as simple as I'm able to with my lack of explanation skill; I came here with wanting to work hard for a good future, whereas now I want to enjoy the whole ride until I can't. That probably makes a lot more sense to me than to you, but I think I'm finding what I want. Then again, it could be a play on my mind, wouldn't be the first time. Another side effect of this cloudiness has given me 10x more moral to study for language, and I really liked languages before. I'm spending a lot of time getting better at my spanish fluency, and my French and a little Dutch.

I'm spending my days lazy, usually just in bed in my room, playing guitar, language, and just boring homework. I'm gonna have some fun in the next days hopefully though, and I'm having a lot of fun exploring this new part of me. I hope everyone at home are feeling good, and doing fun stuff. And if there was one thing I wish people would know, it would be that if you ever share a thought of me, you can be certain I've given you a hundred already. I think a lot about home, and people I used to see and know etc.