Bulletproof Heart

I can feel that I'm falling back to my ordinary routines.  It only took me 8 months to get used to America, haha.I've got 60 days or 8 weeks left here, and I don't know what to do, say, or feel. I've experienced more than I ever thought I would; I've gotten to do everything I wanted and even more. I'm not done yet, I've still got a couple of things to cross off the list. However, it does really feel as if a lifelong journey is about to end. It's funny how 8 months have felt like years and years, yet it has gone by so fast. I honestly can't believe everything that has happened.

The funniest thing happened a while ago; as I looked at myself in the mirror like so many times before, and I noticed that I'm not a little kid anymore. And it's started to become clear how close I am to being 18. 18, it has always seemed so far away. I've always thought of 18-year-olds as grown ups, and pretty old people. Now that I'm just a couple months away from it myself, I feel old xD I already feel like life's slipping away too quickly. I'm gonna keep living life the way I want it though, wasting the wasted time and living when I feel like it, 'cause there's nothing else I'd rather do.

Letting Go Has Never Looked Better

Oh dear future, please lead me gently and give me what I need to get where I want. I can't wait 'til I come back home. As you know my opinion on going home is so divided.  But one thing is for certain, I'm finally done with letting worthless people take the best of me. No more. With that being said, I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow, I can't wait. I'll also dye it black. How short I'm gonna cut it, is still uncertain. Though as always, it won't be shorter than what I like, so no, not short short. Today  was such a beautiful day, and I took advantage of it and went over to Hawthorne. Didn't see any extremely abnormal people today, which was surprising.

Furthermore, I can't even come close to imagine how it's gonna be to see my friends again. Seriously, I can't xD I'm sorry brothers and sisters of Arendal, but I no longer remember what you feel like. I hope you'll be good to me, and show me in two months when I return to the place of my heart. Oh nothing can compare to Arendal. It's like we say "borte bra, men hjemme best <3 " and I really do stand by that. To all you people living in Arendal thinking "there's nothing for me here" and "I wanna get out of this boring place".. You're right, it is a pretty boring place, but holy shit it's full of love you'll feel nowhere else. I wouldn't wanna have been any other place growing up, and it is the place I wanna be buried haha.
The heart of my life, and in my opinion the heart of the strongest most loyal friends there are.