Out Of Time

I’ve never felt so sober.
I’ve never felt the low that I feel tonight.
Your words made everything drag on and on.
I finally found her,
and when I did I just couldn’t make things right.
Is this really happening?
Oh god I think I just ruined my life.


What the fuck am I doing?
I can’t tell the difference from wrong and right.
I second guess my decisions,
cause I haven’t been this person in my whole life.
I think I need something new here,
but I keep longing for what I had.
No need for second opinions.
I do the best I can to ruin what I have,
come on.


Don’t think you’ve got to go it alone here;
I’ve got nothing left to hide.
You've got time, just make up your mind.


I thought this was what you wanted;
someone who gets everything right.
I thought this was what you wanted;
someone to put you first in their life.
'Cause we’re running out of time.


Let's have three cheers for the new year.
Here's to hoping it's not as bad.
This wasn't part of my vision.
The optimist in me swore we could make this last, but no.
You ruined my favorite records;
I listen to them and think of you.
I just hope you remember
all of the countless times that I believed in you, for what?


Don’t think you’ve got to go it alone here;
I’ve got nothing left to hide.
You've got time, just make up your mind


I thought this was what you wanted;
someone who gets everything right.
I thought this was what you wanted;
someone to put you first in their life.
'Cause we’re running out of time.


Just know that it kills me
when I hear anything to do with you;
You won't see it, but believe me.
I need to be right where you are.
You know that I’m leaving,
and you won't hear until a year from now.
But this kills me;
'Cause now I hate that everything's, everything's about you.


I thought this was what you wanted;
Someone who gets everything right.
I thought this was what you wanted;
Someone to put you first in their life.
'Cause we’re running out of time


Don’t think you’ve got to go it alone here;
I’ve got nothing left to hide.
You've got time, just make up your mind.


A Day To Remember - Out Of Time 

Darkest Of Reveries

There are 88 days until I go home, and I've been here for 202 days. I really don't wanna leave xD But I've got a lot of things to do, and people to see, so of course it's gonna be amazing. The biggest thing is gonna be to come back to an over inflated state, where everything costs 3-4 times more. I'm thinking of booking a couple of tickets for Escape The Fate and Attack Attack! But I'm not sure if it's worth the 20 bucks a ticket yet haha.  Anyways, here are some pics.

Awwww yeeaaah! XXXTM. Love her signature

The Hollywood Kills, my new favorite band! :D

 It's a bit hard to see, but I really want this tattooed. Without the text of course though. The symbol for lust on the inside of my arm. Hmm, what do you think? Pm me xD 

You Make Me Wanna Die

This Friday started out like a lot of other Fridays, but eventually turned out to be so much more than that. I got home from school a got ready to go downtown for a French Lesson, which was a lot of fun, Aron is such a great teacher. After that it was straight back home to get ready for the big night. Eventually Dylan's father picked me up, and me and Dylan were on our way to see The Pretty Reckless at the Hawthorne Theater(one of the coziest venues ever!). The first band, The Hollywood Kills, were so amazing. They are very fresh, so fresh they still make everything by them selves haha (I think that'll change after this tour though). And after they played me and Dylan bought their cd and had a chat with them, and got them to sign it. They were so nice, and so thankful. They even signed with comments; "much love" and "thanks so much." Something a bit peculiar happened after the second warmup band started to play. A girl looking very shy came up next to me (I was on the side were there weren't a lot of people). And she started smiling and talking to me, which was a little bit awkward 'cause you have to get pretty close to talk over the sound of a concert. I normally don't care, but she was really tense, which makes me really insecure for some reason haha. She would come and go a couple of times until TPR, and after she said  bye, but without a lot of her clothes xDD It was very warm though, so she wasn't the only one. Anyways!

Asides from odd/awesome people, me and Dylan were pretty tired after the second band played, and we had to wait quite a bit for TPB, but as the lights went out and I got ready, I felt it was worth a million more hours for what was ahead(I had VIP tickets so I'd get to meet her). I make it sound like such a big deal, this is because to me it's like getting to first play in a movie with the actor, and then getting to do a fuck-scene with them. The concert was great, she was hot as hell, and she had quite some moves, some involving the microphone stand. They played almost all the songs I wanted them to play. When they finished we lined up for the meet and greet. We got free posters as we waited in line, and I had a pretty hard time understanding what was about to happen. When it was finally our turn, a came up to them and looked at Taylor. I handed her my copy of Light Me Up, and she said thanks for buying the cd instead of pirating it. I'm sure that by now I was as red as an strawberry, but I managed to push forth "thank you for being amazing. Can I get a hug?" She said sure, and gave me a long enough hug for me to smell her. Yeah, I'm totally a creeper xD But she's so beautiful, and even 100 times more beautiful in real life. I got a picture with her, and then we met the awesome guys from The Hollywood Kills again, and we talked some more, and got pictures with them. I told them that they had to come to Europe, and hopefully Norway. They said they hoped for a Europe tour, and thanked again for that we bought their cd, and that we took such an big interest in them.  This as been the best evening I've had in years!

Dream Of Para-Para-Paradise

No matter how much I like to focus on what I've got, I can't help but to let my mind wander. I often think of how it would be to find that one place where you could just relax, and know that this is where you belong. Sometimes that feeling of belonging comes along, and I feel great, but I kinda miss that feeling of just knowing that this is where I belong. I guess what it comes down to is that I miss my friends, and the safety the give. How retarded we used to act together, and just not giving a shit about who sees or knows. That being said, I don't wanna leave Portland anymore, this place is more than a home for me now, it's found its way to my heart. This place is ful of people who love to chill and take it easy, as well as have fun and enjoy your days. I've grown accustomed to new habits, learned to live without some things, and replace them with others.

I've seen so much, experienced more than ever, and everything in less than 7 months. I've been here for 181 days, and I've only got 108 days left. It's so scary how fast time goes. And I'm so sorry to say this (even though it's not my fault) but I've started to forget so much about my old life. Friends voices, the color of neighbor houses, the silence of the woods outside my house. More importantly, I've forgotten how it is to be with people who understand exactly who you are, where you come from, and what you value. The love for my closest friends has done nothing but grow stronger though, I can't wait to enjoy all those small things again. All those times spent with people (not mentioning names because I don't want anyone to think I've forgotten them) just chilling out, gaming, eating chocolate pudding, acting foolish laughing at stuff no one else would laugh of. Enjoying life for what it is. I still do those things, but I miss doing them without having to feel abnormal, I miss Arendal. My home, my roots, my heart.

I have often dreamed, of a far away where a hero's welcome is waiting for me.


Donnie Darko is one of the best movies I've ever seen, and I never get sick of it. If you like movies that makes you think, and that are pretty original, I suggest this one. It's an experience to watch.

Waiting Here For You Everlong

After some slaps in the face, things just keep getting better for me. Things aren't changing that much, just my attitude towards them, and some luck I guess haha. Last Wednesday I was at a concert with The Fray, it was so amazing. He came out to the crowd and was within an arms length of me! He also rose from the piano without the mic to try to sing without it. He tried to shut everybody up, and it worked in the beginning, and I stod close enough so I heard him pretty well. But then he gave up because of some assholes xD It was all in all great though, and they even played Ungodly Hour.

I'm at the moment sleeping over at Dylans place. I've lived here since Sunday and I'm gonna live here a little while more. I like it a lot, they have good food. There are two dogs here, and they're very cute, but one of them, Alfredo, he's a big fluff ball that always smiles. He jumps up to hug you, and kiss you, and if I don't let him kiss me he gets so mad xD He's such a bitch.  I've been learning Dutch, French and Spanish so much lately, and I love it. Languages is really something I enjoy.Anyways, I promised pictures, so I'll get some pictures up here finally.


Dylan dressed up as Light for me 8D Haha, he's such a beast.


Saw someone else with my tattoo! :D So awesome



Walking around in a book store, and the most random Norwegian book comes up xDD What the fuck. It says "Yes! Time for wedding."


Took a lot of pics in California, but there's no way I'm uploading all that c:


Was so awesome being in Hollywood! This guy is my favorite comedian from my childhood :3


From the basketball game, we owned them so much :D And we got a free chalupa or something because they got over 100 points.


This is just hilarious xD

Discovering The Waterfront

I'm just home from one of the best concerts I've ever been to. It's actually the 2nd best to be more accurate. It was freaking amazing, I can't believe it myself yet. I got to stand on stage (and touch xD ) Silverstein and August Burns Red. As I crowd surfed, some weirdo grabbed my legs instead of my body and I fell face down, as I get up people of course go crazy and starts to hit around them (which was where I was unfortunately.) So I started bleeding pretty bad, people circled around me and asked if I was okei xD I just said yeah and kept going. Silverstein played every song I wanted them to, except for My Heroine, but that was understandable. They played old songs like Discovering The Waterfront, Bleeds No More and Your Sword Vs My Dagger.

I'm really starting to enjoy this place, more than I ever thought I would. I feel so at home here, I can't explain it. It just feels amazing, like I was born to find this place. Every day I get more and more comfortable, and feel more and more at home. To be honest, I don't really wanna leave this place anymore :) But, after everything's said and done, I could never find any place like Arendal. And I'll never find friends like the friends I've got at home. I'm looking forward to seeing home again, but I wouldn't mind spending some extra time here in Portland, Oregon. Anyways, I'm so tired, and I need to rest. So goodnight!

Kjærlighet Er Mer Enn Alt

After almost a month I decided it was time to write a new entry again! January has gone by so fast, and for every day that passes I want to stay in Portland more xD It makes me think, in June when I'm leaving, I'm gonna have a really hard time. Now, that I want to stay here does not mean I've forgotten about my old life, and believe me I miss every little part of Arendal. But I'll get it back soon enough, and I'll appreciate it a lot more. That's the main thing I've learned these days, to not take anything for granted. The people who are there for me are what makes me who I am, so thank you. I just came home from a Portland Trail Blazers game, and it was awesome haha, we won by almost 50 points. The Blazers turned out to be a pretty awesome team, and they have a 13/9 win/lose ratio in the NBA, but they turned out to be a lot better than you'd think from that. In my opinion that is.

These are stressful times though, tomorrow I have my last final exam, which is in Spanish 5 honors. I'm pretty excited about not having physics next semester, that's gonna mean so much more time to focus on French and other stuff I need to focus on! Oh, and another thing I did was go to California. I experienced more than my heart and soul could handle, haha. To have been places like Disneyland, Universal Studios etc, it's just amazing. I got to see so many props from movies, big sets I've only seen on TV or in a movie. To be in the footsteps of stars like Will Smith, Robert Downey Jr, and all the big ones. It's crazy, especially for a guy from a small town like Arendal (40-50,000 inhabitants.)

As you can imagine, I've got a lot of pictures to show. And eventually I'll put a lot of them on here, but for now I'm too lazy. Or actually I'm too not lazy, 'cause I'm gonna get busy with more studying. Furthermore, I get to see August Burns Red, The Fray, Silverstein, The Pretty Reckless, and more these coming months. Holy shit I love America xD If it wasn't for the government and the redneck/white trash I'd move here without a doubt. Portland is the heart of America it seems, the people aren't like people anywhere. Everyone's nice. If you want a new friend, all you have to do is find someone you think looks interesting and start talking. I've experienced it more than once, to put it like that. They're always there with a helping hand, and putting yourself 2nd is something that's just normal here. You of course have exceptions, the assholes, but they're to be found in every place on earth anyways. Portland is amazing, I wouldn't wanna have come to any other place in the states, not even California or Florida. "Keep Portland weird," as they say (and I think I've contributed pretty good to that).

Stay true to yourself, 'cause when it's all said and done you don't need anyone else :)